I am like a child anticipating Christmas. I am hopeful that God will grant me what I truly desire. But I cannot be sure. God may give me something totally different. He is a loving Father. I used to want to manipulate God’s will to fit what I wanted. But I desire God’s best even if it isn’t what I desperately yearn for. Anyways, He sees life from all sides and knows what I cannot. I will not lie and say that this time of uncertainty is easy but it allows me to draw closer to Him if let it.
“Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say on the LORD!” Psalm 27:14
“Trust in the LORD, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart…Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of Him who prospers in the way, because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.” Psalm 37:3-4,7.
While I wait, I will pray. I will continue to pray with earnest until God closes the door. Then I will pray that God gives me the courage to accept His no. But for now I will wait on the Lord and hope for a yes. ❤